The feelings I have gained from pushing myself today go way beyond just feeling better health wise. Obviously I do feel better because I’ve made the effort and I know it will have done me some good. But it’s more than that – it has also made me feel better psychologically too because I did something I genuinely thought I wouldn’t be able to – and you can too!
Those of you who know me may have noticed that I haven’t quite been myself lately, I’ve just had my own little pity party going on but not really done anything about it or made any effort to try and change things – because I thought I couldn’t change anything. I just resigned myself to the fact that this is my life now, Hashimotos Thyroiditis is a lifelong condition and I will need to take medication for the rest of my life, which won’t cure it but will help to manage it. I also have a lot of excruciating pain in my ankle/foot which I am going to receive a pain killing injection for, so you can’t really blame a girl for feeling a little bit down.
But do you know what? There are a load of people in the world a lot worse off than I am. It is also so nice to know that there are some really supportive people out there who offered that little bit of encouragement I needed. Yesterday I mentioned on Instagram that I was feeling a bit fed up and three bloggers – yes lovely bloggers, not even people that I know in real life, gave me the little boost that I needed. So thank you to Steff, Elle and Laura, you are all stars!
I decided a couple of days ago I would give swimming a try, I haven’t been swimming for probably about a year but I used to go a few times a week and love it! I wrote a blog post about it last year which you can read here if you like https://sunraintea.com/2018/03/17/swimming/. Now it has officially been confirmed that the bones in my foot aren’t broken and the fact that I truly think the pain can’t get any worse I thought I’ve got nothing to lose by trying again.
I checked out the pool timetable, found out it was lane swimming this morning and made the decision to go. My intention was to swim a few lengths and actually even if I managed a couple that would be an achievement! Sod that I don’t look a pretty sight in a swimming costume, I was determined to give it a try anyway.
I started in the slow lane section and alternated between the slow and medium sections and I am so pleased with myself for managing to swim fifty lengths. Yep you heard it right – fifty!! I set myself little goals, starting with 2, then 5 and then multiples of 5 and I just kept on going and each time I reached my goal I pushed myself to do a little bit more.
Can you imagine how great it made me feel? Yes my foot hurt and my arms and shoulders too but I really enjoyed it, does that make sense? I definitely want to go again and will do soon. Long term I am hoping that if I manage to stick to it, I may manage to build up my muscles a little so that will put less strain on my joints and also hopefully I might lose a little weight and feel a bit healthier.
Making the decision to do something positive for me has made a difference to how I feel today. From feeling a bit sorry for myself and negative about the outcome of this health condition, Hashimoto can stick his thyroiditis, I don’t want it to define me and I do want to feel good about myself. I’m going to do what I can to try and improve my health and well being.
This feels like a bit of a disjointed post because I have written it quickly but the message I wanted to get across is that, even if you think you can’t – you probably can. The feelings I have gained from pushing myself today go way beyond just feeling better health wise. Obviously I do feel better because I’ve made the effort and I know it will have done me some good. It has also made me feel better psychologically too because I did something I genuinely thought I wouldn’t be able to – and you can too!