My blog is usually really positive – I think, I try and inject the sunshine as much as I can. However as my blog title suggests, (You can read here) there is always a bit of bad stuff to go with the good.
At the moment I am feeling that I’m not the best I can be and it is annoying. For me I think it is the fact that I have put weight on and I really didn’t want to. A couple of years ago I lost about two and a half stone and it made me feel really good about myself. Everyone complimented me on how I looked and that made me feel even better. We are all different shapes and sizes and that’s fine, it makes us all unique and I’m not saying there is anything wrong in that at all. It’s just me. When I have put a bit of weight on it makes me feel uncomfortable and I don’t like it. My clothes don’t fit properly and I just feel a bit bleeurrgh.
Anyhow as I was saying, a couple of years ago I lost that excess poundage and was exercising regularly, going to an exercise/weight loss health club, running a few times a week – which I love ❤️ and eating well. Then I twisted my ankle. So bloody annoying. I have hypermobility in my joints and my ankle just gave way. Anyway this caused a lot of pain – Achilles tendinitis, a split tendon and now a heel spur (extra bone grew on my heel to protect it) and I was advised to stop running, aerobics etc. Wonderful. I have had loads of treatments, acupuncture etc and sports massage recently which has helped. The lovely sports massage lady has told me to massage my calf muscles a few times a day and, fingers crossed, it is helping the pain. I don’t think I’ll be running any marathons soon but I do have hope that one day I’ll be able to run again.
Falling down the stairs a couple of months ago and spraining the ligaments in my other foot and ankle didn’t help either. God I really am a moaner aren’t I?!
So here I am two years on and two stone heavier and not feeling great about myself. Don’t get me wrong I am really pleased with to see this on my Dry January app😀🤗. It’s just that I had hoped giving up wine would have caused massive weight-loss but I seem it have substituted wine for chocolate, which is just plain stupid.
Look ⬅️⬅️⬅️ How much money it says I’ve saved! I’m not sure whether to feel happy or embarrassed, I guess a bit of both really…
So I have set myself a target, no figures involved: I am going to make myself eat healthier; I am going to (try and) drastically cut down the amount of chocolate I am eating; I am going to make sure I go for a walk every day; I am going to follow motivational people on Twitter, read motivational health blogs and I am going to really try and exercise a minimum of three days a week. I have booked myself into two Pilates sessions next week (this weekend was fully booked) and I MUST make myself go.
It has made me feel better and more committed by writing it down, so whether anyone else reads this or not isn’t the most important thing, it just means that I can read it back and see how I’m doing, plus give myself a kick up the arse when I have that “can’t be bothered feeling.”
For now though I’m going to pack my bag and go swimming and make a start…